I feel like a kindergardener:)

Why is it now that I started college, lol I feel totally stupid. I mean we had to write a narrative essay (now mind you I can write) but I just have problems having it organized and using the right words, and all that jazz. We have a site that we go to and we can send in our essays to get it revised or some help with.. Lol well I sent it in 5 times and each time something else is wrong with it. I get frustrated because I want it to be perfect the first time.. I feel like a 5 year old that went straight to college